of what little faith left

i'm learning to breathe, i'm learning to crawl, i'm finding that you and you alone can break my fall ... i'm living again, awake and alive. i'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies - switchfoot

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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

A conversation.

On the verge of once again spilling my emotional guts to my good friend Stacey, I am stopped in my tracks. On the ride home from Sheryl's house, with Switchfoot's The Beautiful Letdown playing at track 7, the following conversation ensues.

"I don't know Stace. Why am I so emo?"

"Sigh, yeah I have baggage, too."

"I don't want to talk about my emotional baggage anymore."

"Yeah. He must increase and I must decrease."

"Wow. Hey, that's good. I never thought of using that verse with my problems before. You know what? You're absolutely right, though."

"Yeah, I've kinda made it my theme verse. John 3:30. It's just so easy to remember."

"But it's one of the hardest things to do."

"Yup. See, like I make it a point to play only worship when I'm emo, you know, like play only worship music the whole week, 'cause any other music will, like ..."

"Yeah, I get it. It's just not good."

"Yeah, like, yesterday I was listening to 'Learning to Breathe,' and I was cleaning out my old drawer, and I started crying during the part that said, 'never knew I could hurt this bad ..."

"I never, never thought that I would fall like that, never knew that I could hurt this bad..."

"Yeah, that part."

"Man, how did you get this, Stace? I mean, here I am, I've been a Christian for years and I still don't get it, and here you come along [with that]. You know what, Stace? I know that [insight] didn't come from you, and that's totally awesome. Really amazing. I mean, see what I'm doing now? I was so ready to talk about my baggage with you, and now I'm not going to talk about it."

"Yeah, and I'm not going to talk my problems with you. I really make it an effort to not keep focusing on myself all the time because we get so me-centered."

"Yeah, I know. Hey you know another song that floors me? That song, 'Let That Be Enough'"

"Oh yeah, with, what was that? 'It's my birthday ...'"

"Yeah. It's my birthday tomorrow, no one here can know, I was born this Thursday, twenty-two years ago. I love that song."

"Yeah. Anyway, Stace. Thanks so much for that. That was really awesome. I'm gonna try and use that."

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