Trust is a gamble.

In the middle of a nice, warm, Sunday morning daydream I stopped and surrendered it to the Lord.

I'm being reminded of the verse that goes "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." (Matt. 6:34). See, people with big imaginations like mine do tend to worry in hyperbole.

But what I was doing wasn't worry. If anything, it was actually a nice pick-me-up. Something to make me smile and feel sentimental, hopeful and ambitious.

But I had to give it up.

For one thing, I knew myself well enough that I could totally get carried away with a daydream that it would eventually take over. I would start losing sight of what really mattered, and my view of God would become this all-encompassing genie that would give me whatever I wanted. I would convince myself so effectively that the daydream could happen, I would start misinterpreting reality. If my life wasn't getting anywhere near that dream I would start getting selfishly disappointed and start questioning things like God's goodness.

For dreamers like me, when Christ takes over, well, the daydreaming has to stop. And if we are ever going to make it His way, well, we must force ourselves to occupy our minds with something infinitely better than our imaginations.

Trust.

< style="font-style: italic;">"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." (Prov 3:5-6)

Lean not on your own understanding. For me that pretty much entails daydreaming, among other things. Trust is harder than dreaming. Trust is a gamble. You're placing all your heart and mind and life on Someone, handing Him the keys, and relying on Him to fulfill you.

And while His record of trustworthiness has been absolutely spotless, it still feels like a major gamble every time I look to Him.

But still, can I actually trust that God DOES know what I want? That the God who knows every intimate detail of the universe knows my own daydreams and the longings of my heart? Can I trust that God's creativity is limitless, that all the plot twists in every movie ever written pales in comparison to how He's writing the story of my life? And can I trust that He does care for me? That He does care about these little musings that I have? That He is concerned about every issue in my heart, no matter how great and small, and will take care of all of them in His own time?

Here's a verse I've been quoting lately. I know it refers to heaven, but I still think it applies to my walk with Him as a whole.

“No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him.” (1 Cor. 2:9)

Someone once told me, maybe you should stop dreaming so big so you won't get disappointed.

I agree.

Here's to the gamble.